A Bit Freaked Out!

I know this sounds dumb because at almost 38 weeks, I can expect Baby Max's arrival any day now...but I got a bit freaked out tonight.

You see, tonight was the last night of our prenatal classes. This six week crash course in parenting covered the basics of childbirth and newborn care. The classes were so informative and now I know the difference between a good latch and one that will create sore, cracked nipples(!)

Last week, we learned how to swaddle and diaper a baby and practiced on a doll. Tonight, I thought to bring this doll (which we call Maxity) in our infant car seat tonight to make sure we were buckling it up correctly. (It turns out we are.)

Anyway, we thought another couple had brought their doll in their car seat too. That is, until The B and I both realized that it was no doll in there -- it was the real deal! It turns out, one couple in our class happened to have their baby a week early. She went into labour on Friday night and Baby Rebecca was born Saturday morning. It all happened so fast. Naturally, this new mom was peppered with questions from all the other moms-to-be in the class. She was now in a league of her own, having gone through L&D, the first sleepless nights and now, applying the tricks we learned about calming a newborn. All the stuff that we had learned over the last six weeks, now suddenly, had REAL meaning.

For the first half hour of our class, as the couple took turns comforting a crying Baby Rebecca, I sat in my chair, a bit stunned. Like I said, I should expect a Baby Maxity any day now, but in all honesty, the reality of the sleepness nights; the crying; the cracked nipples etc., sank in tonight - like, REALLY sank in.

I'm a bit freaked. I mean, we are ready, but let's be honest, there is still so much I think I have to do...and so little time to do it. While I tell myself that I'm ready, I still don't feel READY, ready.

However, I guess no one ever really is, right?